Christmas Eve Eve

Yeah, Dec. 23rd. I'm sitting in CC's on Perkins Rd feeling a little blue. Not sure why. Just am. I guess no one is just happy all the time; that would be weird. Maybe I will try to accept this feeling and enjoy myself in it today. What a concept. Maybe I will go to the Shaw Center and look at art on the 4th floor. I need some more in-person friends. I miss Dallas, hanging out with a group of lesbian couples at somebody's house and just having a good time. I miss my friends in BR that I haven't seen for a long time. One in particular; my friend Brooke. I miss her TONS. Maybe I will text her and maybe we can reconnect. That would make me happy. :)

Cool Nights

I wish I could go back to college, live life over again, be 22 again, live somewhere far away and furrow myself a place in with an artsy, earthy, pot-smoking crowd of lesbians. Lesbians who like indie and folk music and love art. I wish I could actually just pick up my life as it is now, and drop it down right into that kind of setting. Cool nights out by group campfires encircled by lesbians with pets and acoustic instruments... guitars... hand drums... and Carrie beside me, sitting on the stump beside mine.

Life in love and loving life. Life in an RV filled with our pets as we travel the country just for the sake of enjoying it, with our home base somewhere very lesbian and cool like Asheville, NC.

Life is better with your nostrils drawing cool, clear night air and the one you love by your side. I want to go camping with Carrie. Wow. Carrie and a few friends maybe.

(Just not one particular friend. I don't trust her.)

Indefinitely

Yeah, so, today was my 2nd day at home with no work to go to. As many times as I've sat at a desk and longed to be home, this is really the pits.

I have very little money to live on indefinitely. I have a possible great job that will start on Monday and, if that doesn't pan out, I have an interview next week. So I am not without leads... I'm more... without enthusiasm.

Guess I'm a little depressed. Blah. My birthday is Saturday and it is so not a big deal to my family. It's a big deal to Carrie but I feel guilty about that... she's talking about getting me a gift but I'm dead weight to her right now until I'm drawing income again. She doesn't need to buy me a gift. I need only for her to be patient with me until I get back on my feet. She is so wonderful and I am grateful for her.

La tee dah. I would love to be as unconcerned as my cats. They just lay around and sleep, not a care in the world. *grin*

Still I Lurk

Bwaa haa ha... yes I am still here. I had a DAY today... my feelings are all in a rumple and I hope I can just attribute this state to PMS and move past it. Even deleted my Facebook page on a whim, deciding I did not need internet socialization sites to have a life, and deciding I would make the internet a much less central part of my life.

See how well that worked, heh... well whatever. I'm at the library, the "Ghettobrary," as I affectionately named it today... near where we used to live, by LSU. C is visiting a friend of hers nearby. She will be back by soon.

Poor Luna is at home... I should have left her tied outside today but I was worried it would rain on her. Which, it did rain... but now she's trapped in the house with noplace to pee. My sweet girl. We will be there relatively soon. We are close in that we are very near the bridge but not so close in that we have approximately 12 miles to go after crossing said bridge. Hang in there, Lu. We will go for a good long walk when I get home.

I need a walk anyway; shake off some of this mood.

I have a lot of frustrations in life. In many different areas. But, all in all, sometimes I want to just take Luna and hit the road... on foot, of course, as I am currently sans automobile... but head... somewhere, who cares where... and start somewhere new. I doubt that would work. You hear all these stories of these celebrities who left their hometowns and headed to Hollywood with $20 to their name and look at where they are now... I don't get the feeling that would work for me. But, who knows.

Maybe I will start blogging on here again. Facebook does not have a blog really, and I have been missing my little blogging excursions.

I am about to check out a bunch of art books. When I get home (and after the walk with Luna) I am going to hide in the attic which is shaping up into quite the art studio. Maybe I'll make something that will make me feel better. *grin*

Just Like Lu

Luna is my sweet dog. I have had her since 2006 and have gotten pretty attached during that time. Love my Lu.

I think Luna is a lot like me… or else I project my emotions onto her… or else she has been around me so much, she has acquired my emotional expression tendencies.

But, for the sake of this blog, let’s just say that is all true.

Luna and I both:

• Look and/or feel a little sad, a lot of the time, but can easily be made to smile
• Like to explore places a lot of others would just as soon leave alone
• Love to eat
• Are defensive of those we care about
• Are very curious
• Sometimes either don’t hear or just don’t want to listen… we’re not sure of which
• Love to take naps on soft places
• Wish we had a few things we don’t
• Get lonely easily but are always open to making new friends
• Love Carrie, Avery, Abel and Vladimir
• Can usually be pretty patient
• Like being outside
• Think snow is fun
• Love treats
• Are glad it’s FRIDAY!!

That’s all I can think of for now. :o) Here’s to today being over quickly!!