I had two dreams last night that really stood out to me. I have done some research on the meanings behind these dreams and wanted to note them in a blog.
The first dream showed me that I get too emotionally worked-up about things and need to detach. Per one of the explanations I found: "In some point in every woman's life, I believe we would all like to be able to disengage from that intense emotional side and chill out. We get very involved emotionally, in all things, and this can be tedious at times, for us and others." Basically this was in reference to a gender-change dream... kind of embarrassing but what am I if not way too open about personal information... yeah, that was an attempt at a joke... heh.
In the dream, which included my partner, we didn't "do" anything... we just... WERE. Both of us. Walking around in different rooms of the same house, both naked and moderately... male. I had to look that one up. The explanation I found helped me feel a lot more comfortable about the dream's content. Just need to chill, detach more...
Maybe need to go to an Al-Anon meeting or two... they talk a lot about healthy detachment. Hmm, that's a really good thought!
In the second dream, I was in what seemed to be a high school. A lot of the dream took place in a classroom setting, where the seats were very close together so you couldn't move around a lot, and there were raised edges... king of like a sardine can without the lid.
In my dream, the people I'd been friends with when we were teenagers... were really snobby toward me and wouldn't give me the time of day. They were laughing and cutting up with their other, preferred friends. I was rejected and excluded. Thing is, I completely did not care. Not a fake bravado, "Oh, I don't care anyway..." with a clump of wistful emotions punctuating that sentence. I really, truly, did not care; saw their behavior as childish and ridiculous. It was like I was reliving an adolescent situation but with my adult mind. Too cool. *grin*
From my favorite dream-explaining site,
The site's text continues... "To see friends from your past in your dream points to your desire to reconnect with a part of yourself that you have lost touch with." Maybe I need to detach from present stresses and worries and reconnect with the freedoms experienced in adolescence.
To put God into this, those freedoms could include... knowing that I was being taken care of and provided for, without worrying one bit or giving it a second thought. Relaxing and not worrying about the future. Letting my parents take care of that and just living life. Wow. Epiphany.
Time to let go... and let my Father take care of me.
Thank You, Lord, for speaking to me in my dreams. Please help me to let go and to relax, trusting You. I can't do life on my own. I can't handle it or produce money upon demand to pay stuff off... but You will provide all my needs according to Your riches and glory in Christ Jesus. Thank You so much. I love You. :)