Amazing.

Amazing things are happening in my life lately. I have so many things so say, I don’t know quite where to start.

Actually right now I’m a little distracted because I’m waiting for a return text from Artist. I sent her a text, teasing her… I thought it was tremendously funny but it’s not half as much fun if she doesn’t respond. Of course knowing her… she’s got such a sharp wit… she will take the time she needs to craft the most stabbing reply possible. Hehe. I like being friends with her.

Yes, I said that. I love being her friend. That is the direction she and I are headed and, after much mental processing on my part, I am fine with that.

I am learning like crazy. There is also purpose for THAT, beyond the world of the Artist. I need to dig in deeper and learn more, faster!! I have a sense of urgency there.

Yesterday I played and sang in church. That was really exciting. Hadn’t played in front of people in a LONG time. Back in the saddle feels nice. :)

Yesterday afternoon, I met the Artist at the Shaw Center. We went and sat on the 4th floor balcony and talked for about 2 hours. She also let me read from a book of her poetry. Talk about GUT-WRENCHING… her poetry was so vividly written, reading it made me almost hurt physically! What I read was obviously from a very hard time in her life. She’s one of THOSE… one of those I keep coming across… who have reached their current place in life only after walking a very broken, harsh, rocky road. Artist is an amazing writer. I told her over and over how much I appreciated her letting me read her poetry; her writings are very personal and real.

I guess I do kind of still have a crush on her… to say I completely did NOT would just be a lie. But I am handling it a lot better. Haha!! Truly though, I love having her as a friend. Getting to KNOW her… and letting her know me, the real me… without the encumbrances of all that comes with having a relationship… is, at this point, a very clear and free experience.

Also, I was able to give her a Bible Promise Book yesterday! She is expressing an interest in the Bible. That excites me because I have been praying hard for her to want God, to hunger for His real love. Circumstances have been lining up in her life, I tell you what! So she has a Bible now, and told me she had “thumbed through some of it.” I was able to show her the book of John, to tell her that is a good place to start. John is God’s love letter to us. I told her, it tells of Jesus’ life, death and resurrection, and really explains the REASON for the rest of the Bible. I also showed her how to find Psalms by opening the Bible to the very center. I am so excited and need to keep on praying for her. Love that girl… in the best way possible.

It has been a very rainy day. Since I ran yesterday, I might take the evening off and read some. I am loving life lately.

Muggy

Muggy Sunday morning
Outside SB
Because, for her, it is SB
And not Starbucks
As my world evolves
Past the ends of my fingertips
Finding that a lack of control
Actually gives more control
And the less I try to manage
The more I end up in charge of
And I am learning
Sometimes
Fewer words convey more meaning

WOW

WOW. Last night was AWESOME. I have never had a better time sitting outside of a Starbucks and chatting for hours.

Not sure what she thinks of me. Though she did make a comment about how ironic it is that all kinds of people want to get back in touch with you when you become interested in someone… she did say the exact words “interested in someone” while sitting with me.

She is deaf… she can speak just fine, and hear a LITTLE… and relies a lot on lip-reading. She does best with people who are good with sign language. So I’m glad I know some ASL. I want to get to know her better.



She is also a writer. She works on a poetry collection and also is 4 or 5 chapters into a novel. She let me read two poems and the first chapter of her book. Very, very intriguing stuff.

She shared a few very personal things with me... those things are safe with me and will go no further than that Starbucks table where they were spoken. I respect her for her honesty.

LOUD ASIANS!!

At Starbucks. In Towne Center. OR "Centre" if you're all snooty and culturally savvy. Heh...

I am sitting outside because there was a very loud table of Asian patrons... coupled with the very irritating music... had to break outta there. Meeting my new friend who, as far as I can tell, is very cool and very worth getting to know better. I hope she likes me. I mean... I hope she finds me interesting and wants to get to know me too. AND I hope she finds me attractive. Because she is definitely attractive. *grin*

Funny... before, I would not have stopped to wonder if someone would be attracted to me. I would just know they would be. Regardless of all the rest of my pluses and minuses, I'm sure that confidence alone had a lot to do with people being attracted to me. A couple of bad experiences in a row can wear a person down. OIE VEY!! heh...

So... on to other topics.

Actually she is here now so... hehe Later :)

Keepin' It Real

So. I'm getting to know new people. And liking it.

Everybody has their pros and cons if you think of that person in a "more than friends" way - but if I keep it in the frame of friendship, I have not met one person that doesn't rock. I love meeting new people and learning about them. And I guess the element of possibility is exciting. :)

But... right now... the idea of committing to someone and NOT continuing to meet new people... is not appealing to me. I'm not getting INVOLVED with anyone beyond conversation and a little flirting, so far... and I'm liking it that way.

I have met one person who would be totally down for meaningless sex, heh... and don't get me wrong, she's beautiful and a lot of fun to talk to... but that's where it would end with her. She lives far away and has her own boatload of drama... though I appreciate that she is totally open and honest about that, even without being asked. But that's really not my desire.

So I'm tryin' to keep it really real. And be honest, even with myself, which is sometimes harder than being honest with anyone else... :)