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So... I made THE STRONGEST COFFEE EVER this morning.  Makes me think of that scene from George of the Jungle...

Admittedly, the coffee itself is not overpowering.  No, I tweaked the ratio of coffee to water in its preparation.  So I could probably use it to paint a wall black. But I mean, it's good!  So... but I think I should dilute the next cup with a good bit of milk.  Like, seriously make it a latte.  Hehe.

This morning is the first morning of the year that we've turned the heater on!  I don't know; i've just always found that a happy event.  This will be our second winter in our house.  Awesome, awesome.

I am very blessed.  Overwhelmingly, hugely blessed.  Thank You, God!

I still miss my dad.  Holidays without him are strange.  He just made everything so much more fun!  And, for the second year in a row, I am going to make a birthday cake for him for Thanksgiving.  His birthday is November 25.  And mine is the 28th so sometimes we would celebrate together.  I miss my daddy very, very much.

Time to go organize my meds... LOL  Seriously I take so many meds, I have an old-people Monday Tuesday Wednesday box.  I take crazy meds, body meds, and something for "epileptic frontal lobe discharge" which, I had no idea what that was.  My neuropsychologist said it's basically like "static."  I don't feel or notice a difference between taking it or not taking it, but she says it does serve a good purpose, so I take it.

Anywhooz, let me go and fill up my box and take the first "S" day... hahaha... because if I don't take my meds, there is an unending realm of possible ways in which I will act weird.  Taking my medicine is good not only for me but also for those around me.  And for my relationships.  LOL

HAVE A GREAT SUNDAY!

Purposes of Pistachos

Jos 24:23-26 - 

“All right then,” Joshua said, “destroy the idols among you, and turn your hearts to the LORD, the God of Israel.”

The people said to Joshua, “We will serve the LORD our God. We will obey him alone.”

So Joshua made a covenant with the people that day at Shechem, committing them to follow the decrees and regulations of the LORD.

Joshua recorded these things in the Book of God’s Instructions. As a reminder of their agreement, he took a huge stone and rolled it beneath the terebinth tree beside the Tabernacle of the LORD.

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From the interwebz:

The terebinth produces turpentine oil, a resin which, being astringent, was used in the ancient East for medicinal purposes. It was also used to sweeten wine and certain foods. 

Many people also grow pistachio trees in order to produce their own nuts. 

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Happy childhood memories.  My daddy loved pistachios.  

God is fascinating.

The Flood

Update!  Right after I published this post, all my posts magically reappeared!!  I don't know how in the world that whole process happened, but I am incredibly grateful.

Anyway, I figured I'd keep this post just... to remember what makes things important. 

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WOW.  So, somehow, alllllllllllllllllll of the posts I have ever written on this blog are GONE.  I have no idea how it happened.  I was putting in a new background, changing the font, etc etc... and THEY... ARE... ALL... GONE.

*deep breath*

Okay.  This can be okay.  No remaining posts reaching all the way back to... *gulp*... TWO THOUSAND SEVEN!!!  Okay, okay... fresh start.  New blog, fresh start.

Like in the 2016 flood.  I lost all my journals, all my school yearbooks form kindergarten through 12th grade, many writings, many photos, many books... many treasured memories.  (Funny how those are the things to come to mind as having been important to me - not the furniture or the washer and dryer.. but my HEART things.)

Losing the heart things hurt the most.  This blog has been a heart thing.  Well that's a bandaid that just got ripped the frick off!  With no warning.

After the 2016 flood, though, I was able to console myself with the idea of getting a brand-new, fresh start.  I liked moving into a new house without loads and loads of boxes and furniture.  It was like a good, cool breath on a mountain top.

Anyway, so here goes with my truly brand new blog.  But I'm keeping the title!!  

Please keep reading.  I am sure there will be lots of interesting posts to come.

Here's to the new.  *clink*

Formless

Sharing my notes.  😊 

Genesis 1:1-2

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth.

The earth was formless and empty, and darkness covered the deep waters.

And the Spirit of God was hovering over the surface of the waters.

Formless:  Transliteration - tôû        Pronunciation - to'-hoo 

(Made a bit simpler...  ta-HOO)

1. formlessness, confusion, unreality, emptiness

   1. formlessness (of primeval earth)

      1. nothingness, empty space

   2. that which is empty or unreal (of idols) (fig)

   3. wasteland, wilderness (of solitary places)

   4. place of chaos

   5. vanity

I feel this way right now.  Formless and empty.  But God made me, so I have purpose.  And in emptiness is unlimited potential.

Empty and formless is a fresh, unpainted canvas.

Darkness:

Transliteration - ḥōšeḵ        Pronunciation - kho-shek'

(make that "gook in your throat" sound... hhhhhHO-shehh)

1. darkness, obscurity

   1. darkness

   2. secret place

Funny... I have always thought of "darkness" here in a negative way.  Like, dark... scary... uncertain.  But obscurity means 'the state of being unknown" and a secret place, to me, means private and safe.

To me that says freedom.  No expectations, no script to follow, nothing and no one to imitate or try to BE.  Hidden away.  Protected.

Deep:

Transliteration - tᵊhôm        Pronunciation - teh-home'

(ta- HOME)  easy to say

1. deep, depths, deep places, abyss, the deep, sea

   1. deep (of subterranean waters)

   2. deep, sea, abysses (of sea)

   3. primeval ocean, deep

   4. deep, depth (of river)

   5. abyss, the grave

This, to me, connotes something scary.  Like the dark unknown... space... getting sucked into a black hole.

HOWEVER!

Obscurity and the secret place of peace and safety are OVER the deep.

Sweet.

And the Spirit of God was hovering...

Hovering.  Well, the King James says the Spirit of God "moved upon the face of the waters" - and since all the Strong's reference material is based on KJV wording, we shall studieth it nigh in that such manner.  Heh... 😊

But I'm sure the meaning is the same, at the base of it all.  Ahhh, translations... 😠😟

Moved:  

1. (Qal) to grow soft, relax

2. (Piel) to hover

(AHA!!  It says HOVER!!!)  hehehe

Upon:

1. upon, on the ground of, on the basis of, on account of, because of, therefore, on behalf of, for the sake of, for, with, in spite of, notwithstanding, concerning, in the matter of, as regards

2. above, beyond, over (of excess)

3. above, over (of elevation or pre-eminence)

PRE-EMINENCE!  God's Spirit was PRE-EMINENT over all that depth and sense of being lost.

Face:

Transliteration - pānîm        Pronunciation - paw-neem'

(just like it says; pah-NEEM)

1. face, faces

2. presence, person

3. face (of seraphim or cherubim)

4. face (of animals)

5. face, surface (of ground)

So, in other words, hovered over the presence or the existence........

Of the waters:

Transliteration - mayim        Pronunciation - mah'-yim

(basically "mai" or, more simply, "MY")

1. water, waters

   1. water

   2. water of the feet, urine

   3. of danger, violence, transitory things, refreshment (fig.)

So, basically, water.  Or, things threatening or uncertain or things that might cause one to... ahem... pee oneself.

(Man, the BIBLE!  I mean, am I right?  LOL)

Summary.  At least for me.  Sometimes things are empty and uncertain, and might seem scary, but God is way stronger than anything that could make us feel threatened.  And emptiness can be a really good thing, and a fresh opportunity.

(Thus saith the Lord.  Let us pray.)

Awesome, awesome.  Thank You, Lord.  Always faithful, always greater.  Love You more and more all the time.  ❤

What is Your Ikigai?

 Excellent article about purpose and happiness:

https://www.nst.com.my/opinion/columnists/2022/07/815985/finding-our-ikigai-key-happiness