Sunday, February 17, 2019

Breathe Out

There are a lot of things I could write about today.  I have a Blue October song resounding in my head.  The song reminds me of my bipolar ex... vindictively blaming, using anger and emotional abuse as a means of trying to extract love and pity.  Sad memories.  My being is stained from the time I spent with her.

So let's make a list... my right-now stream of consciousness... alphabetically.

A - anger
B - blame casting
C - caring is where I live now
D - defiance
E - easy; things are easy when life is happy
F - fear
G - God
H - hearing and listening
I - intuition; giving credence to that
J - Jesus
K - keep the good things
L - love; I have lots of it
M - meanness (a signal to turn and walk the other direction)
N - never again; never go back
O - only one 
P - purity; clean love
Q - who ever uses Q anyway
R - released from where I was before
S - safe
T - tears
U - unveiled
V - vindictive
W - walk away
X - same as q
Y - yellow
Z - Zion

I am ever grateful to be free of that relationship.  Ever grateful for the "normalness" in which my existence now rests.  Though a bit melancholy for the passion, blood and daggers that came along with that insane relationship.

It's one or the other, maybe... well, that's what I mean when I say that relationship has stained my being.  In my mind, sort of, it's like... you can either have normal, healthy and calm... or crazy, abusive and passionate.

I'm sure that's not true.  I'm just sharing my thoughts and the feelings that have, presently, floated to the top of my emotion soup.

Later today I am going to visit my family.  That should be nice.  And there will be kids there, which should promise a continual flow of activity and mild chaos, enough to keep my mind out of the box in which it loves to curl up and fester.

Dramatic, right?

This is me today.  Actually, this is just me IN THE MOMENT.  I won't stay here long.  

Just need to get that song out of my head.  I need a NEW song.  😊



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Okay, so here are some thoughts about God!  Good thoughts  😊

A - always with me
B - believe; all you need to do
C - caring
D - death is over
E - even flow through life
F - free
G - good
H - hearing; God hears me
I - independent
J - Jesus again  😊
K - keep the torch lit
L - love
M - mercy
N - newness
O - open minded
P - praise
Q...
R - rest and peace
S - saved from sadness
T - trust
U - unbelievable... yet real
V - validation
X...
Y - years and years and forever
Z - wow... those were good thoughts   😊 😊 😊

Aight, I feel better.  Whew!  I don't like dark moments.

Wishing you a day of quiet thoughts, rest, peace and light.

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Friday, February 15, 2019

In the Next Room

Lena and I went last night to see a play.  Theater is not one of our most common indulgences but we both love plays and so we decided to go for Valentine's Day.

We went to see a play entitled, "In the Next Room" or "The Vibrator Play."  It was so amazingly acted, hilarious, attention-grabbing... all that.  Fantastic play.



A little history... "hysteria" was once the term used to refer to what was... wrong with... women experiencing bouts of emotion, nervousness, hallucinations, irrational behavior, or having strong sexual desires.  Doctors in the late 1800's attributed these female maladies to problems based in women's reproductive systems.  (From which, over time, developed into the term "hysterectomy" for when a woman's uterus is removed.)  (little side-nugget of information there...)  Something about hysteria being caused by fluid retention in a woman's reproductive organs and a need for release of such fluids.  (Yes, it's what you think!  LOL)

From https://allthatsinteresting.com/female-hysteria:

"By the 1800s women were increasingly diagnosed with hysteria, the treatment for which was a hysterical paroxysm. Today, we call that an orgasm."

Hence, "or the Vibrator Play"

Image result for in the next room baton rouge  Mrs. Catherine Givings (Megan Barrios) and Mrs. Daldry (Courtney Murphy)

From http://theatrebr.org/inthenextroom.html about the play we saw:

"In the Next Room, or the Vibrator Play is a comedy about marriage, intimacy, and electricity. Set in the 1880s at the dawn of the age of electricity and based on the bizarre historical fact that doctors used vibrators to treat ‘hysterical’ women (and some men), the play centers on a doctor and his wife and how his new therapy affects their entire household.  In a seemingly perfect, well-to-do Victorian home, proper gentleman and scientist Dr. Givings has innocently invented an extraordinary new device for treating “hysteria” in women (and occasionally men): the vibrator. Adjacent to the doctor’s laboratory, his young and energetic wife tries to tend to their newborn daughter—and wonders exactly what is going on in the next room. When a new “hysterical” patient and her husband bring a wet nurse and their own complicated relationship into the doctor’s home, Dr. and Mrs. Givings must examine the nature of their own marriage, and what it truly means to love someone."

Image result for in the next room baton rouge  Dr. Givens (Knick Moore) and Mrs. Givens

They really, really made it hilarious!  The play was not at all indecent, though not something one might bring their children along to see.

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So we're settled in, laughing along with this crazy-but-somewhat-relateable play... and we hear from the far right side of the audience,"B, are you here?  Are you ok?  B??  HEY!!  SOMEBODY CALL 911!!!"

When the audience kind of "awoke" and realized this was real and was NOT a part of the play, people sprang into action.  A doctor in the audience went over to care for the man on the floor.  I heard from somewhere behind me, "Yes, we have a man who is non-responsive.... looks to be in his late 50's... we're in the Baton Rouge Little Theater, behind Bon Marche Mall."

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So they got the guy to wake up... I think he had stopped breathing or something... sat him on a chair, put another chair in front of him to elevate his feet.  At this point all the house lights are on and everyone is looking at their spouses/friends/whatever with a "Well... what now?" look.

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I wondered if the play was essentially over... they had this guy sitting up, holding a large, yellow dust pan on a pole.... under his chin, in case he... puked?  I didn't know.  I turned to Lena and said something to the effect of, "I guess we're supposed to... wait?  For the EMT's to arrive, come IN here, check on this guy and... wheel him out?"

And that was exactly what happened.  I saw several pairs of people get up and leave while the EMT folks had not yet arrived.  One of the actors came out on stage and said we they would, indeed, continue the play where they had left off when things calmed down again.  This was met with chuckles from the crowd and an apology from the guy with his feet up.  The actor assured the man there was nothing to be sorry about; things just happen sometimes.

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Definitely a play no one there will ever forget!  The emergency guys arrived very quickly, checked out the guy's vitals, walked him over to a stretcher where he sat down and was wheeled out.  The woman with him was still crying.  He seemed fine, just a little unsteady yet as he waved up at the crowd on his way out and said again, "Sorry!:

A few minutes later, the play resumed.  I was very impressed with how the actors got right back into character without so much as a hiccup.  The play finished as awesomely as it had begun.  I leaned over to Lena and said, "Well, happy Valentine's day!"

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Surprises come when you least expect them... if I may be a bit redundant!

Arts Council of Greater Baton Rouge
Here are two scenes from the play that I found online.  In my opinion, the cast in these clips does not hold a candle to the talented people we saw performing last night.  Louisiana folks just do things BETTER.  LOL...  But you can see examples of the same play here:

Early Scene
Later Scene

When the play ended, the cast came out and took a bow then stood in a line for everyone to pass and shake hands as we exited.  I heard over and over, "Thank you, thank you for staying."

They did a great, great job.  Five thumbs up.  👍👍👍👍👍

😅😃😃😃😃😃  HERE is a link to The Advocate's story on the play and information about dates and times, if you might like to see it yourself.  Just... without the extra "ER" sideshow clip!